Thinspo

 

Thinspiration. I guess Thinspir or Thinspi would be more accurate. Thinspo is a component to a pro-Ana lifestyle. It is when you look at photos of beautiful skinny people to garner inspiration and stick to your diet. Except an Ana diet is something rather silly, like the 2,4,6,8 diet.

 

What is Ana you say? Its anorexia. Pro-Ana is a movement for a pro-anorexia lifestyle. Who is Ana you ask? She is your friend (according to pro-anas, not me) who starves when you eat and eats when you starve. You need to find the happy medium.  Thinspo is part of that lifestyle.

 

Pictures like this and this are used:

 

 

I say we take back the night. I think Thinspo is a powerful weight loss tool, but rather than look at these bony skeleton’s for inspiration, why not look at real beautiful women whom we would want to look like. Even celebrities who have a beautiful but normal look to them.

 

I say we take it back. Why let it only be part of a pro-ana lifestyle.

 

If you or someone you know suffers from anorexia or bulimia, help is available.  

What I hate about dieting is the hunger lifestyle that takes over my mind, against my better judgment. I diet for about 2 weeks and all of a sudden I turn into a junkie. I am a food junkie. The first step is admitting you have a problem right?

 

It positively cannot be mentally healthy that I weigh my self daily, view my stomach from every angle and time out all my food intake to a tee. Breakfast? 7:00am, snack? 1 0, lunch? 12, snack? 3, possible second snack? 4, dinner? 6, desert? 8. I eat all day long and when I am not eating, I am thinking about eating, what I am going to eat next, what I would rather b eating. I would say I spend a good two-thirds of the day thinking about eating. What’s more, even though I eat at regular intervals (mostly veggies or fruit) I am still starving 90% of the day. I never eat until I am full. I just had my first snack of the day, 1 wedge of laughing cow Swiss cheese, light. No crackers, too much fat and the cheese is good alone. I am still hungry, but no longer starving so that with the help of a 20 oz bottle of Diet Coke I can make it to lunch.

 

The cult of the hungry. I think about food and hunger all day. I even enjoy my hunger. Its like my enemy and best friend all rolled into one. The longer it hurts, the more fat my body is consuming, the happier I am. The longer it hurts, the more I want to stuff my face, the unhappier I am. When I am hungry I feel thinner. I only weigh myself when I am hungry, never when I am normal or full. I think I look better hungry. I love going to bed hungry but then I dream about creamy cheese and ice cream. I love the feeling of eating a low fat ice-cream on a diet and knowing I can still lose weight, but I love hunger more. It’s a powerful energy, and terrible energy drainer. It is sick.

 

What will happen, as it always does, is that I will really begin to enjoy my hungry. Hunger is my best friend and worst enemy on a diet and I will give in to it less and less until I have cut out all snacks and am eating perfectly portioned meals – and then the fun comes. That will go on for a week; maybe two and then I will LOSE IT. I always do. I’ll consume my fridge left over pasta, left over fish (I hate fish, but who cares). Then it will start again.

 

The cult of hunger is a cycle and I can’t break free.

 

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False high yesterday or false low today? I’ll Know Tomorrow. You know what? I am kind of hungry.